~ A couple of great days. October 11, 2016 ~

           Well, I had a couple of really great days. Today I got a nice visit from my Steven. He brought Katana up to see me since she has been visiting her mom in Fallon while on a school break. She is basically my fifth baby so I am always so happy to spend some time with her. She'll fly home to Arizona on Sunday.
           Yesterday my Reno girls came to visit me and we watched some of our beloved Halloween movies. It was a wonderful time too. I feel much better with these two visits. I hope to get back to my blogging soon. I have lots more photos to upload one of these days. Until then, God bless.

~ August 22, 2016 ~

          Well, I think I'm feeling a little better. If I could just get some decent sleep I'd really be doing good, lol. I am tired now so I am gonna try to lay down in a few and hope to sleep. I did a couple hours of cleaning and dishes today. I hate when I get so behind as it makes for so much work to get caught up on. I also busted down some boxes that had been bugging me just sitting stacked up in the living room and general tidying up out there. The other night I was able to dust and clean and organize some of the shelves in the living room. I will get to the big shelves as soon as I can.

          At night while I lay here my mind thinks of all the cleaning I need to do and I always think I will get started on it the next day. Well, that rarely happens anymore. Then I often wish I could get my old OCD cleaning self back. I'm afraid John thinks I'm not a great housekeeper and he'd be right for all the time he's known me. It wasn't always that way though. He doesn't realize how extreme I used to be and how much it truly does bother me that my house isn't clean and tidy. Everywhere I go in my house I see stuff that should be cleaned. It makes me crazy! Even more crazy that I can't seem to do anything about it though. By the time tomorrow rolls around I am in pain and exhausted again so nothing gets done really. I just get paralyzed and overwhelmed by it. Often it's just a shifting of things in a lame attempt at cleaning. I really want to get ahead or at least on top of it all so I just keep trying to go with it whenever I get a burst of energy.

          Anyway, I do love the feeling of accomplishment when I get some things cleaned. I love my home. It comforts me but it becomes a place I don't want to be when it's filled with chaos I can't stand it. It's constantly in the back of my mind and I can't shake it. I really need some sleep. Tomorrow I would like to try to get the bathroom relatively clean. Maybe some more laundry done. Well, goodnight! God bless.

~ August 19, 2016 ~

          Well, I can hardly believe how much I can't sleep lately. I really am tired too but here I am still awake. It's nearly 4:30 am and not a wink yet. I've tried all my tricks to fall asleep. I put on a quiet Christmas movie but ended up seeing the end. Put on my angelic Jackie Evancho music softly playing but still awake.
          Tonight all I can think about is how much I miss my old life. I miss my sweet little granddaughter and I just can't shake it. I miss my kids. I know I have John and I am so grateful and blessed to have him in my life but it's so lonely at night. We live together but not like that. He has his own room and I have mine. So he doesn't know I'm in here still awake and crying. Nobody does except whoever may be reading this now. I can't help it.
          I just really want to snuggle my little Ella again. When she stayed with me some nights she'd sleep with me and I could smell her hair and rub her back. I so wish I could see her little angelic face sleeping again and hear the cute little sleeping sounds she'd make. I loved it and I feel like I'll never get to have that feeling ever again. It's so soul crushing right now. My nose is so stuffed now from crying.
          Well, John just did the early morning starting of the air conditioner. Doesn't mean he's up yet, just getting a start on cooling the house. He does it every morning. Thank you Honey for doing that. I love you so much!
          I guess I'll try blowing my nose one more time and try to fall asleep. Thank you blog for being here to talk to when everyone else is asleep or busy. It's just about 5 am now. Now just hope I won't sleep most of the day away. I hate doing that. Thank you Lord for this day.

~ 5 More Months Until Christmas!! July 25, 2016 ~

WhooHoo!!

 

~ Melanie and Sarah's Wedding, part 3. May 13, 2016 ~

Having a little fun, lol.

Genevieve and Melanie have been friends since Mel was 16 or so when she worked at the outdoor pool in Fallon.

Steven has always enjoyed picking his sister up, lol.

A photo with their best friend Alyssa.

A Tiffy and Pops selfie.

Daddy and Mellie selfie.

A Steven photo bombed Daddy and Sarah selfie, haha.

A couple of last sister selfies before we all disperse.

We always love the cute faces Sarah makes. John got this one on his phone.

Ella talking to her mommy.

They special ordered their Batman sneakers for the wedding.

Their black wedding band set.

Most of these beautiful photos were taken by our family friend Erin. She did a great job! Thank you Erin!

Mel had changed into her reception outfit. More her style for the wedding.

I really love this one! Too cute.

I'm so glad they're happy and married.

          Ok, next we go to the reception. See you there! :)

~ Melanie and Sarah's Wedding, part 2. May 13, 2016 ~

Baby sister and Big sister.

Our very own Salt and Pepper.

The still fabulous looking old married couple!

Our sweet beautiful Ella Rose.

My current whole little family. I love them all so much!!

My own little Thing 1 and Thing 2 all grown up.

My sweet babies! In their birth order Tiffy, Mellie and Steven.

Tiff and new sister Sarah.

Tiffy and me selfie.

Ella and her Aunties. She loved getting her new dress for the wedding.

Mellie, Grandma Jody and Sarah.

Some different family shots.

(Melanie's side) Cousins Amanda and Chris, the girls and Uncle Bill and Aunt Lisa from California.

Sarah, Uncle Mike and Mellie.

Some of Sarah's side family and friends. Sorry I don't remember any of their names.

These ladies were very nice to chat with though.

An attempt at a group photo, lol. Not too bad.

Now was supposed to be just the ladies.

John took this one.

Ella being cute as ever!

The kid's aunt and my good friend Lisa and me. Her family came over from Concord, California.

Lisa, me and my mom Jody.

This one made me laugh a little. Steven and I looking at our phones while Ella and her "Unci" Great-Grandma Jody are talking about their pretty rings.

          Even more to come in part 3.